Some of you who have been following my blogs for some time would be aware of my recent experiences. During the worst times, I banged my head on the wall and asked why and an endless barrage of questions.
Having survived it so far (keeping my fingers crossed), I know that life is a very strange journey whereby our destination is unknown. A narrow minded person would expect things to turn out this way or that way and me, with a neat and tidy (and sometimes overproductive mind like tonight where I have been hit by a blogging frenzy)mind tend to restrict expectations to the worst case scenario and in the process, rob myself of the joys of living life the way it is meant to be lived.
Actually, I used to think that by going through the worst possibilities, it might ease the pain of suffering in the future. What a stupid notion! In doing just that, I had merely dug the grave deeper for myself when I had not even died yet! I don't know if you can get what I am saying. It is almost 2 a.m. and I am still not sleepy. Anyway, here's a story that sort of sums up what I have been trying to say quite incoherently...
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Two traveling angels stopped to spend the night in the home of a wealthy family. The family was rude and refused to let the angels stay in the mansion's guest room. Instead the angels were given a space in the cold basement. As they made their bed on the hard floor, the older angel saw a hole in the wall and repaired it. When the younger angel asked why, the older angel replied..."Things aren't always what they seem."
The next night the pair came to rest at the house of a very poor, but very hospitable farmer and his wife. After sharing what little food they had the couple let the angels sleep in their bed where they could have a good night's rest. When the sun came up the next morning the angels found the farmer and his wife in tears. Their only cow, whose milk had been their sole income,
lay dead in the field. The younger angel was infuriated and asked the older angel, "how could you have let this happen!?
The first man had everything, yet you helped him," she accused. "The second family had little but was willing to share everything, and you let their cow die."
"Things aren't always what they seem," the older angel replied." When we stayed in the basement of the mansion, I noticed there was gold stored in that hole in the wall. Since the owner was so obsessed with greed and unwilling to share his good fortune, I sealed the wall so he wouldn't find it.
Then last night as we slept in the farmers bed, the angel of death came for his wife. I gave her the cow instead. Things aren't always what they seem."
Sometimes this is exactly what happens when things don't turn out the way they should. If you have faith, you just need to trust that every outcome is always to your advantage. You might not know it until some time later.
mamasita Hai Paula.
I am just about to go to bed too..read your lovely entry..goodnight dearie.